Lucy walks back dripping. By twilight1 people startle at her tangled2 hair, the slap of her bare feet. On the steps of her boardinghouse, three girls cross her path. Fear of the tiger makes them jumpy. One flinches3 at the sight of Lucy, who is possessed4 of an urge like instinct—to move not aside but forward, leaping straight at their silliness. She could teach a lesson in real fear, the thing that snaps girls’ spines5.
She smiles, lets them pass. The air’s too still. Restless twitch6 at the corner of her lips. Maybe a meal will settle her.
The landlady7 catches her just inside the door, saying there’s a visitor in the parlor8. It must be an anxious Anna. Lucy sighs, thanks the woman.
“A malevisitor,” the landlady says, moving to block Lucy’s path. Her spit flies. After five quiet years at the boardinghouse, this rage is surprising. “Keep that door open, mind you, and no bringing him upstairs. I’ll be watching.”
Full dark has fallen. A stalking hour. It must be Charles.
—
It was night the first time she met Charles, too. Three years ago, long before Anna. A time when Lucy still woke in the dark with her feet itching9, loneliness a dry scratch in her throat that no amount of water could quench10. And so she walked all the way across town.
By day decent people avoided the streets nearest the station, grimy with saloons and gambling11 dens12, where vaqueros, gamblers, Indians, drunkards, cowboys, charlatans14, disreputable women, and other unsavory types were known to congregate15. By night, those same streets called to Lucy. A familiar defeat in the postures16 of the people there. Looking soothed17 Lucy as thirteen, fourteen passed. Her limbs outgrew18 their gawkiness, her hair smoothed, and she found people beginning to look at her too. Men, especially.
Those dirty streets cracked open after dark like the spines of schoolbooks. You’ll understand when you’re older, Ma used to say. Lucy learned to call Ma’s glide19 into her step, Sam’s swagger. Playing a game that thrilled and scared her both. She learned to ignore, to respond, to spit and flee unpunished. Poor men, desperate men, rough men—and then a man who was none of these.
He fell into Lucy as he was thrown out of a gambling den13. Cusses pursued him, his expensive clothes were torn—yet he laughed, unfazed. Promised he’d be back with more to spend. Where did you come from?,he said to Lucy. Unlike the rest, he didn’t rage or sputter20 at her rebuff. He kept smiling. He kept coming back.
Poor men gave up, disappeared, ran out of money and pride. He had the arrogance21 of wealth. One night he offered a handful of coins and Lucy turned away, shivering. Not fear—more like how a man’s hands shiver after firing a gun. She looked over her arms, her breasts, her belly22. Trying to see where in that softness lay her weapon.
She quit those streets soon after. She’d learned to angle her bonnet23, control her walk, brush hair over her face. Learned to deny the ghosts that haunted the silhouette24 of a broken man limping down an alley25, or the momentary26 shape of a woman turning, long-necked, in the window of a bedroom above a saloon—how to seem an ordinary girl, the one who met Anna.
And then he reappeared beside Anna. Neatened, still smiling, named. Charles, Anna said as she introduced her fiancé, this girl is very important to meDon’t you forget her.Charles pulled Lucy a hair too close in greeting, leaving just enough space between them to accommodate the narrow alley, the dark night, the secret they shared from Anna. He said, How could I ever forget you?
—
The man who waits in the parlor is black-haired, brown-skinned. He turns toward Lucy with narrowed eyes.
Her hand flies to her nose. It’s Ba.
Though there’s no grave soil on his red shirt, no maggots crawling from his boots, something long-buried breaks open. Lucy feels the heat, the choking dust. All the years and the distance and the cleanness of her living disappear as Ba walks toward her. It’s not the Lucy of Sweetwater who stands in the parlor. It’s a younger Lucy, slight and shoeless, so much of herself laid bare. A Lucy she figured buried in that Western territory.
She wants to run, but the tight dress constricts27 her ribs28. She can’t breathe. And Ba’s too quick besides—the haint’s come in a younger guise29. No limp, no missing teeth. Long-legged, his cheekbones could cut. He stands before her, grinning.
And he says, “Pow.”
That voice. Not low enough for Ba. A husky quality like Ma’s. Close-up the face looks its sixteen years.
“Your hair,” Lucy says, voice breaking. “It’s gotten so long.”
Last she saw, Sam had shorn that hair to the scalp. Now it falls into Sam’s eyes, curling just under the ears. Half a lifetime Lucy spent tucking that hair into a braid. She reaches for it now. Then remembers.
“What are you doing here?” She snatches her hand back. “You left me.”
Sam’s smile drops. Sam’s chin lifts. “You weren’t hardly around. You left first.”
“I checked on you every day. And not one word—don’t you have any consideration? I thought you were hurt, or dead. I didn’t ask you back here. I can’t believe—”
Some things can bring her back in an instant. Chicken shit. A dead man’s face. And this stubbornness in Sam that’s resisted the passage of the years. What Ma called sullenness30. What Ba called boy. What Lucy called, with a mixture of admiration31 and envy, Sam’s shine.
The door creaks wider. It’s the landlady, her disapproval32 shrill33. Lucy turns to reassure34 the woman, drawing politeness over the twelve-year-old’s hurt.
When she turns back to Sam, she feels only weary. How can she explain the way it was when Sam left? Something went out of the world. A whole piece of her was tamped35 down and buried so deep that no one in Sweetwater can see it. She’s changed. No longer the sister Sam knew.
“I think you’d better go,” Lucy says.
And then Sam says, “I’m sorry.”
The apology chases Ba’s ghost from the room. It’s Sam alone who stands there, extending a hand.
“Truce?”
A common hand. Rough, calloused36, and quivering, making Lucy wonder what Sam buried too. Sam holds that hand out as seconds tick by. For the first time, it seems, Lucy has something Sam wants. How long will Sam stay to get it?
She leaves the hand hanging. “Let’s get some dinner. You’re buying.”
—
Lucy chooses where they won’t bump into Anna. A grease-spotted place by the station, where Sam orders without consulting the menu. Two steaks, a sour cook, and Sam aiming a smile so wide the woman walks away stunned37, her own mouth turned up seemingly against her will. Meanwhile Lucy’s appetite slunk out the door at the sight of the flypaper. She asks for water. Sam watches her wipe her dirty fork, then calls across the restaurant.
“Miss?” Diners turn. “Miss, you with the beautiful curls.” The cook, graying hair in a twist, looks up from onions in astonishment38. “We’d appreciate fresh cutlery. If you’ve got it. Thanks greatly, miss.”
“Don’t make a fuss,” Lucy hisses39, adjusting her hair over her face.
“They’ll look no matter what.”
Sam, as usual, makes that true. Drapes over the rickety chair as if it’s a lounge in Anna’s parlor. If Lucy learned to go unseen, then Sam spent five years polishing a natural shine brighter. Sam’s walk is bolder, Sam’s shoulders straighter. A new bandana at the throat hides Sam’s lack of Adam’s apple. Look hard and Lucy can see remnants of the pretty girl-child: long lashes40, smooth skin. But it’s like trying to fix on an animal moving through the grass at the jackal hour. Your eyes make you question.
What most people see is a man. Handsome as Ba must have been before life cut its marks in him. All Ma’s charm and grace. Likely that’s why the two steaks come so quick, why the cook flashes another gummy smile.
Sam falls upon the food with an old ferocity. Lucy spins her water glass, remembering starvation. Damp on her fingers, a matching damp in her eyes. What Sam stirs up is unwelcome. Murky41.
Sam mistakes Lucy’s gaze. “Do you want the second steak?”
“I can’t. I’ll ruin my dress.” Lucy brushes the white fabric42, imported special by Anna’s father. She doesn’t want to explain its cost, or Anna, or Anna’s father. To distract she says, “Tell me where you’ve been.”
Sam takes another bite, leans back. At sixteen, Sam’s voice is unaccountably deep, with a singsong rhythm. Easy in this heat to imagine Sam spinning these tales by a campfire. They have the cadence43 of practice, like Lucy’s orphan44 story. These—Lucy’s eyes prick—are stories Sam shares with strangers.
Sam fell in with cowboys to lead a great cattle drive North. Traveled with adventurers to a lost Indian city in the South. Trekked45 up a mountain with a sole companion to see the world laid out from the peak. Sam chews and talks, swallows and boasts, and hunger roams in Lucy. A hunger for wild places, for paths that twist so you can’t see their ends, for fear of the kind missing along with wildness in Sweetwater. A hunger for the trail that makes unsalted oats and cold beans into a feast, the trail that sears the body awake, not this sluggish46 place, this orderly place where all the streets are mapped and known.
“Where will you go now?” Lucy asks when Sam stops. The restaurant’s gone quiet, yet an echo remains47—a kind of ringing inside Lucy, as when one glass strikes another and sets it in motion too. She almost doesn’t recognize it for hope. “With who?”
Sam scrapes a fork over the empty plate. “I’m going alone this time. Had enough of traveling in packs. I’m planning to go pretty far, and I figure I won’t come back. So I figured—I figured I’d say goodbye.”
The hunger in Lucy is grown so vast, she fears she might collapse48 into it. She calls for her own steak. Intends just to nibble49. But the meat occupies her mouth and eyes so she doesn’t have to speak or look at Sam, doesn’t have to fear the keenness of her disappointment showing through. She lifts her plate to hide her face, and laps the bloody50 juices.
Sam pushes the other two plates across. Lucy licks those clean too. Only then does she look down at her dress. It’s ruined, spattered with small pink drops.
Sam says, “It suits you.”
Anger clarifies. This is Sam mocking again, come through town to upturn51 everything—selfish through and through. She reaches for the bill when it arrives, intending to call this a goodbye gift.
But Sam’s quicker. Like some magic trick, Sam’s brown hand slaps down—and when it lifts, there remains a flake52 of pure gold.
Lucy throws both hands, a forearm, over the sight. “Have you been prospecting53?” Fear hums through her. She looks around, but none of the other diners have moved. The rest of the room seems suspended in torpor55. “You know you can’t. The law—”
“I didn’t prospect54 for it. I was paid by some gold men I worked for.”
“Why in the world would you do that?”
“Didn’t you ever wonder?” The swagger leaves Sam’s voice. For the first time Sam speaks softly, conscious of the other diners. “We weren’t the only ones wronged. There’s others, Indian and brown and black. None of us think it was right, what got took from us. Didn’t you wonder what the gold men did with what honest folks dug up?”
Up this close, Lucy sees what she missed under Sam’s charm. Beneath is the same mix of violence and bitterness and hope that killed Ba. That old history that Lucy orphaned56 herself from.
“Those gold men really think this land belongs to them,” Sam says, scornful. “Isn’t that the greatest joke?”
Lucy can’t locate her laughter. What she can locate is the precise spot on a wall, in the biggest house in town, where a deed hangs in a frame that, if melted down and sold, could feed a hundred families. Sam may scorn it, but there it is in a place Sam could never imagine. Lucy pretends to dab57 at her dress. She knows the answer to Sam’s question, and it shames her. She’s seen where the gold goes. She is a guest in its house, she wears its gifts, she is its friend and walks arm in arm with it through Sweetwater.
—
Something lunges at them as they step from restaurant to dark street. Lucy jerks Sam back. It’s only a kid, running by close enough to jostle their elbows. Legs flash in the streetlamps’ orange light. Raggedy kids, most of them some shade of brown, play at tigers.
The littlest chases the others, his fingers hooked to claws. They laugh at his thin yowl and scramble58 away. Soon he sits alone in the street. His face puckers59.
And then from behind Lucy comes a growl60 that shakes her bones. A surging, uneven61 sound that rises and recedes62, rises and recedes, till the very air rends63 around it. Into that suffocating64 night comes a cool breath of terror. The laughing children freeze. Down the block a drunkard rises, starts to pound at the nearest door. Only the littlest sits with eyes full of wonder.
Lucy turns. There’s dread65 in her heart, and something else too. The growl set off another ringing.
No beast stands behind her. Only Sam, withdrawn66 into shadow. Sam’s long throat ripples67 to produce that sound, far lower than should be possible. Bit by bit Sam quiets.
When Lucy can speak again, she says, “There’s rumors68 of a tiger.”
“I know.” Sam stays in shadow. Eyes and grin show through. “A tiger with a taste for beef.”
Lucy looks down at Sam’s boots. The toes are pointed69, just as the second print in the woman’s yard was pointed. “You can’t have . . .”
Sam shrugs70. “I did.”
The children have slid away, the drunk admitted into the saloon. The street returns to quiet—but it’s not as it was. Something vital lacking. There is no tiger. Summer makes Lucy sluggish, stupid. What a fool she was. Here there was never even the possibility of tigers. Thousands of faces and none of them can shiver her. Except this one, and it’s leaving again.
“They wouldn’t survive one, would they?” Lucy says.
“Not like us.” Sam’s words come out singsong. “Nobody like us.”
Lucy takes Sam’s hand, as she didn’t in the parlor. It’s bigger now. Unfamiliar71. Yet there, high up, tucked under sleeve, is the delicate wristbone. A rhythm recalls itself to Lucy as she swings their clasped hands. The old tiger song.
Lao hu, lao hu.
Sam joins in. It’s sung as a round, their two voices chasing each other as the two tigers do in song. In singing Sam’s voice is higher than in speaking. Almost sweet. When Lucy arrives at the end of her verse, she waits so that, with a pounce72, they land on the last word together.
Lai.
Anna steps out as if summoned. “Lucinda? Is that you?”
—
Anna brings noise back to the street. She hugs Lucy around the neck, chatter73 spilling down Lucy’s ears, flooding the nooks and alleys74. Anna babbles75 her relief to see Lucy safe, scolds about the tiger, recounts her own night—how they left the hired men behind and Charles took her to a gambling den as a lark76, how terrible and wonderful and marvelous it was inside.
“Guess how much money I lost,” Anna says, giggling77. She whispers the amount into Lucy’s ear.
Behind, Sam’s gaze on Lucy like a hot Western sun. Lucy knows what Sam must think. She lengthened78 her name—what of it? Sam was once Samantha. Neither quite what their parents intended. Why, then, this shame? Lucy wishes back the quiet. Wishes Anna away. She wants to think.
“Who’s your friend?” Anna remembers to ask.
Sam steps fully79 under the streetlamp and Anna takes a breath. She looks between Sam and Lucy. Disassembling Lucy’s face as others do—seeing not Lucy but eyes and cheekbones and hair.
“You must be—” Anna says.
“Sam.” Smoothly80 Sam takes Anna’s hand. “Pleased to meet you.” No space left for Anna to repeat her question without rudeness. Sam is all teeth, roguish charm.
Anna laughs. “The pleasure is mine.”
They’re still clasping hands when Charles says, “And how do you know Lucinda?”
“Who?” Sam says in exaggerated confusion. “Oh, Lucinda. We only just met.”
“You met here?” Charles says, his eyes going to the gambling den where Lucy saw him years back. “You mean—”
“No,” Lucy says. “Sam comes from the same orphanage81 where I was raised. They asked me to show Sam around Sweetwater.”
“It’s a fine town,” Sam says. “Very—safe.”
“Then you two aren’t . . . ?” Anna looks between them. “We thought—” She smiles, uncertain. Her eyes flick82 to Sam’s hand, which hangs loose.
A strained silence falls. The lamp above sputters83, striping their faces. Anna, Charles, Lucy—all uneasy. Only Sam still grins. As if this is all some game played by Sam’s rules. The orange light flatters Sam’s cheekbones, Sam’s dark eyes. Easy to imagine Sam a few years out. Gaining bulk, filling up on steak, becoming precisely84 who Sam wanted to be. Eleven years old and Sam declared, An adventurer. A cowboy. An outlaw85. When I’m grown.After five years missing, five years lost, five years without place or person to box Sam in, the sibling86 who returned seems more familiar rather than less—Sam more Sam
“I have an idea,” Anna says to break the silence. “Why don’t we show Sam a nicer part of town? Charles and I were on our way home for my cook’s hot cocoa. Won’t you join us? Lucinda, I know you love sweets.”
Lucy wants only the empty street, and the aftermath of Sam’s roar, which set off a reverberation87 that has yet to stop, one leading like a narrow, overgrown track to a place beyond words. But Sam is saying yes.
She smiles, lets them pass. The air’s too still. Restless twitch6 at the corner of her lips. Maybe a meal will settle her.
The landlady7 catches her just inside the door, saying there’s a visitor in the parlor8. It must be an anxious Anna. Lucy sighs, thanks the woman.
“A malevisitor,” the landlady says, moving to block Lucy’s path. Her spit flies. After five quiet years at the boardinghouse, this rage is surprising. “Keep that door open, mind you, and no bringing him upstairs. I’ll be watching.”
Full dark has fallen. A stalking hour. It must be Charles.
—
It was night the first time she met Charles, too. Three years ago, long before Anna. A time when Lucy still woke in the dark with her feet itching9, loneliness a dry scratch in her throat that no amount of water could quench10. And so she walked all the way across town.
By day decent people avoided the streets nearest the station, grimy with saloons and gambling11 dens12, where vaqueros, gamblers, Indians, drunkards, cowboys, charlatans14, disreputable women, and other unsavory types were known to congregate15. By night, those same streets called to Lucy. A familiar defeat in the postures16 of the people there. Looking soothed17 Lucy as thirteen, fourteen passed. Her limbs outgrew18 their gawkiness, her hair smoothed, and she found people beginning to look at her too. Men, especially.
Those dirty streets cracked open after dark like the spines of schoolbooks. You’ll understand when you’re older, Ma used to say. Lucy learned to call Ma’s glide19 into her step, Sam’s swagger. Playing a game that thrilled and scared her both. She learned to ignore, to respond, to spit and flee unpunished. Poor men, desperate men, rough men—and then a man who was none of these.
He fell into Lucy as he was thrown out of a gambling den13. Cusses pursued him, his expensive clothes were torn—yet he laughed, unfazed. Promised he’d be back with more to spend. Where did you come from?,he said to Lucy. Unlike the rest, he didn’t rage or sputter20 at her rebuff. He kept smiling. He kept coming back.
Poor men gave up, disappeared, ran out of money and pride. He had the arrogance21 of wealth. One night he offered a handful of coins and Lucy turned away, shivering. Not fear—more like how a man’s hands shiver after firing a gun. She looked over her arms, her breasts, her belly22. Trying to see where in that softness lay her weapon.
She quit those streets soon after. She’d learned to angle her bonnet23, control her walk, brush hair over her face. Learned to deny the ghosts that haunted the silhouette24 of a broken man limping down an alley25, or the momentary26 shape of a woman turning, long-necked, in the window of a bedroom above a saloon—how to seem an ordinary girl, the one who met Anna.
And then he reappeared beside Anna. Neatened, still smiling, named. Charles, Anna said as she introduced her fiancé, this girl is very important to meDon’t you forget her.Charles pulled Lucy a hair too close in greeting, leaving just enough space between them to accommodate the narrow alley, the dark night, the secret they shared from Anna. He said, How could I ever forget you?
—
The man who waits in the parlor is black-haired, brown-skinned. He turns toward Lucy with narrowed eyes.
Her hand flies to her nose. It’s Ba.
Though there’s no grave soil on his red shirt, no maggots crawling from his boots, something long-buried breaks open. Lucy feels the heat, the choking dust. All the years and the distance and the cleanness of her living disappear as Ba walks toward her. It’s not the Lucy of Sweetwater who stands in the parlor. It’s a younger Lucy, slight and shoeless, so much of herself laid bare. A Lucy she figured buried in that Western territory.
She wants to run, but the tight dress constricts27 her ribs28. She can’t breathe. And Ba’s too quick besides—the haint’s come in a younger guise29. No limp, no missing teeth. Long-legged, his cheekbones could cut. He stands before her, grinning.
And he says, “Pow.”
That voice. Not low enough for Ba. A husky quality like Ma’s. Close-up the face looks its sixteen years.
“Your hair,” Lucy says, voice breaking. “It’s gotten so long.”
Last she saw, Sam had shorn that hair to the scalp. Now it falls into Sam’s eyes, curling just under the ears. Half a lifetime Lucy spent tucking that hair into a braid. She reaches for it now. Then remembers.
“What are you doing here?” She snatches her hand back. “You left me.”
Sam’s smile drops. Sam’s chin lifts. “You weren’t hardly around. You left first.”
“I checked on you every day. And not one word—don’t you have any consideration? I thought you were hurt, or dead. I didn’t ask you back here. I can’t believe—”
Some things can bring her back in an instant. Chicken shit. A dead man’s face. And this stubbornness in Sam that’s resisted the passage of the years. What Ma called sullenness30. What Ba called boy. What Lucy called, with a mixture of admiration31 and envy, Sam’s shine.
The door creaks wider. It’s the landlady, her disapproval32 shrill33. Lucy turns to reassure34 the woman, drawing politeness over the twelve-year-old’s hurt.
When she turns back to Sam, she feels only weary. How can she explain the way it was when Sam left? Something went out of the world. A whole piece of her was tamped35 down and buried so deep that no one in Sweetwater can see it. She’s changed. No longer the sister Sam knew.
“I think you’d better go,” Lucy says.
And then Sam says, “I’m sorry.”
The apology chases Ba’s ghost from the room. It’s Sam alone who stands there, extending a hand.
“Truce?”
A common hand. Rough, calloused36, and quivering, making Lucy wonder what Sam buried too. Sam holds that hand out as seconds tick by. For the first time, it seems, Lucy has something Sam wants. How long will Sam stay to get it?
She leaves the hand hanging. “Let’s get some dinner. You’re buying.”
—
Lucy chooses where they won’t bump into Anna. A grease-spotted place by the station, where Sam orders without consulting the menu. Two steaks, a sour cook, and Sam aiming a smile so wide the woman walks away stunned37, her own mouth turned up seemingly against her will. Meanwhile Lucy’s appetite slunk out the door at the sight of the flypaper. She asks for water. Sam watches her wipe her dirty fork, then calls across the restaurant.
“Miss?” Diners turn. “Miss, you with the beautiful curls.” The cook, graying hair in a twist, looks up from onions in astonishment38. “We’d appreciate fresh cutlery. If you’ve got it. Thanks greatly, miss.”
“Don’t make a fuss,” Lucy hisses39, adjusting her hair over her face.
“They’ll look no matter what.”
Sam, as usual, makes that true. Drapes over the rickety chair as if it’s a lounge in Anna’s parlor. If Lucy learned to go unseen, then Sam spent five years polishing a natural shine brighter. Sam’s walk is bolder, Sam’s shoulders straighter. A new bandana at the throat hides Sam’s lack of Adam’s apple. Look hard and Lucy can see remnants of the pretty girl-child: long lashes40, smooth skin. But it’s like trying to fix on an animal moving through the grass at the jackal hour. Your eyes make you question.
What most people see is a man. Handsome as Ba must have been before life cut its marks in him. All Ma’s charm and grace. Likely that’s why the two steaks come so quick, why the cook flashes another gummy smile.
Sam falls upon the food with an old ferocity. Lucy spins her water glass, remembering starvation. Damp on her fingers, a matching damp in her eyes. What Sam stirs up is unwelcome. Murky41.
Sam mistakes Lucy’s gaze. “Do you want the second steak?”
“I can’t. I’ll ruin my dress.” Lucy brushes the white fabric42, imported special by Anna’s father. She doesn’t want to explain its cost, or Anna, or Anna’s father. To distract she says, “Tell me where you’ve been.”
Sam takes another bite, leans back. At sixteen, Sam’s voice is unaccountably deep, with a singsong rhythm. Easy in this heat to imagine Sam spinning these tales by a campfire. They have the cadence43 of practice, like Lucy’s orphan44 story. These—Lucy’s eyes prick—are stories Sam shares with strangers.
Sam fell in with cowboys to lead a great cattle drive North. Traveled with adventurers to a lost Indian city in the South. Trekked45 up a mountain with a sole companion to see the world laid out from the peak. Sam chews and talks, swallows and boasts, and hunger roams in Lucy. A hunger for wild places, for paths that twist so you can’t see their ends, for fear of the kind missing along with wildness in Sweetwater. A hunger for the trail that makes unsalted oats and cold beans into a feast, the trail that sears the body awake, not this sluggish46 place, this orderly place where all the streets are mapped and known.
“Where will you go now?” Lucy asks when Sam stops. The restaurant’s gone quiet, yet an echo remains47—a kind of ringing inside Lucy, as when one glass strikes another and sets it in motion too. She almost doesn’t recognize it for hope. “With who?”
Sam scrapes a fork over the empty plate. “I’m going alone this time. Had enough of traveling in packs. I’m planning to go pretty far, and I figure I won’t come back. So I figured—I figured I’d say goodbye.”
The hunger in Lucy is grown so vast, she fears she might collapse48 into it. She calls for her own steak. Intends just to nibble49. But the meat occupies her mouth and eyes so she doesn’t have to speak or look at Sam, doesn’t have to fear the keenness of her disappointment showing through. She lifts her plate to hide her face, and laps the bloody50 juices.
Sam pushes the other two plates across. Lucy licks those clean too. Only then does she look down at her dress. It’s ruined, spattered with small pink drops.
Sam says, “It suits you.”
Anger clarifies. This is Sam mocking again, come through town to upturn51 everything—selfish through and through. She reaches for the bill when it arrives, intending to call this a goodbye gift.
But Sam’s quicker. Like some magic trick, Sam’s brown hand slaps down—and when it lifts, there remains a flake52 of pure gold.
Lucy throws both hands, a forearm, over the sight. “Have you been prospecting53?” Fear hums through her. She looks around, but none of the other diners have moved. The rest of the room seems suspended in torpor55. “You know you can’t. The law—”
“I didn’t prospect54 for it. I was paid by some gold men I worked for.”
“Why in the world would you do that?”
“Didn’t you ever wonder?” The swagger leaves Sam’s voice. For the first time Sam speaks softly, conscious of the other diners. “We weren’t the only ones wronged. There’s others, Indian and brown and black. None of us think it was right, what got took from us. Didn’t you wonder what the gold men did with what honest folks dug up?”
Up this close, Lucy sees what she missed under Sam’s charm. Beneath is the same mix of violence and bitterness and hope that killed Ba. That old history that Lucy orphaned56 herself from.
“Those gold men really think this land belongs to them,” Sam says, scornful. “Isn’t that the greatest joke?”
Lucy can’t locate her laughter. What she can locate is the precise spot on a wall, in the biggest house in town, where a deed hangs in a frame that, if melted down and sold, could feed a hundred families. Sam may scorn it, but there it is in a place Sam could never imagine. Lucy pretends to dab57 at her dress. She knows the answer to Sam’s question, and it shames her. She’s seen where the gold goes. She is a guest in its house, she wears its gifts, she is its friend and walks arm in arm with it through Sweetwater.
—
Something lunges at them as they step from restaurant to dark street. Lucy jerks Sam back. It’s only a kid, running by close enough to jostle their elbows. Legs flash in the streetlamps’ orange light. Raggedy kids, most of them some shade of brown, play at tigers.
The littlest chases the others, his fingers hooked to claws. They laugh at his thin yowl and scramble58 away. Soon he sits alone in the street. His face puckers59.
And then from behind Lucy comes a growl60 that shakes her bones. A surging, uneven61 sound that rises and recedes62, rises and recedes, till the very air rends63 around it. Into that suffocating64 night comes a cool breath of terror. The laughing children freeze. Down the block a drunkard rises, starts to pound at the nearest door. Only the littlest sits with eyes full of wonder.
Lucy turns. There’s dread65 in her heart, and something else too. The growl set off another ringing.
No beast stands behind her. Only Sam, withdrawn66 into shadow. Sam’s long throat ripples67 to produce that sound, far lower than should be possible. Bit by bit Sam quiets.
When Lucy can speak again, she says, “There’s rumors68 of a tiger.”
“I know.” Sam stays in shadow. Eyes and grin show through. “A tiger with a taste for beef.”
Lucy looks down at Sam’s boots. The toes are pointed69, just as the second print in the woman’s yard was pointed. “You can’t have . . .”
Sam shrugs70. “I did.”
The children have slid away, the drunk admitted into the saloon. The street returns to quiet—but it’s not as it was. Something vital lacking. There is no tiger. Summer makes Lucy sluggish, stupid. What a fool she was. Here there was never even the possibility of tigers. Thousands of faces and none of them can shiver her. Except this one, and it’s leaving again.
“They wouldn’t survive one, would they?” Lucy says.
“Not like us.” Sam’s words come out singsong. “Nobody like us.”
Lucy takes Sam’s hand, as she didn’t in the parlor. It’s bigger now. Unfamiliar71. Yet there, high up, tucked under sleeve, is the delicate wristbone. A rhythm recalls itself to Lucy as she swings their clasped hands. The old tiger song.
Lao hu, lao hu.
Sam joins in. It’s sung as a round, their two voices chasing each other as the two tigers do in song. In singing Sam’s voice is higher than in speaking. Almost sweet. When Lucy arrives at the end of her verse, she waits so that, with a pounce72, they land on the last word together.
Lai.
Anna steps out as if summoned. “Lucinda? Is that you?”
—
Anna brings noise back to the street. She hugs Lucy around the neck, chatter73 spilling down Lucy’s ears, flooding the nooks and alleys74. Anna babbles75 her relief to see Lucy safe, scolds about the tiger, recounts her own night—how they left the hired men behind and Charles took her to a gambling den as a lark76, how terrible and wonderful and marvelous it was inside.
“Guess how much money I lost,” Anna says, giggling77. She whispers the amount into Lucy’s ear.
Behind, Sam’s gaze on Lucy like a hot Western sun. Lucy knows what Sam must think. She lengthened78 her name—what of it? Sam was once Samantha. Neither quite what their parents intended. Why, then, this shame? Lucy wishes back the quiet. Wishes Anna away. She wants to think.
“Who’s your friend?” Anna remembers to ask.
Sam steps fully79 under the streetlamp and Anna takes a breath. She looks between Sam and Lucy. Disassembling Lucy’s face as others do—seeing not Lucy but eyes and cheekbones and hair.
“You must be—” Anna says.
“Sam.” Smoothly80 Sam takes Anna’s hand. “Pleased to meet you.” No space left for Anna to repeat her question without rudeness. Sam is all teeth, roguish charm.
Anna laughs. “The pleasure is mine.”
They’re still clasping hands when Charles says, “And how do you know Lucinda?”
“Who?” Sam says in exaggerated confusion. “Oh, Lucinda. We only just met.”
“You met here?” Charles says, his eyes going to the gambling den where Lucy saw him years back. “You mean—”
“No,” Lucy says. “Sam comes from the same orphanage81 where I was raised. They asked me to show Sam around Sweetwater.”
“It’s a fine town,” Sam says. “Very—safe.”
“Then you two aren’t . . . ?” Anna looks between them. “We thought—” She smiles, uncertain. Her eyes flick82 to Sam’s hand, which hangs loose.
A strained silence falls. The lamp above sputters83, striping their faces. Anna, Charles, Lucy—all uneasy. Only Sam still grins. As if this is all some game played by Sam’s rules. The orange light flatters Sam’s cheekbones, Sam’s dark eyes. Easy to imagine Sam a few years out. Gaining bulk, filling up on steak, becoming precisely84 who Sam wanted to be. Eleven years old and Sam declared, An adventurer. A cowboy. An outlaw85. When I’m grown.After five years missing, five years lost, five years without place or person to box Sam in, the sibling86 who returned seems more familiar rather than less—Sam more Sam
“I have an idea,” Anna says to break the silence. “Why don’t we show Sam a nicer part of town? Charles and I were on our way home for my cook’s hot cocoa. Won’t you join us? Lucinda, I know you love sweets.”
Lucy wants only the empty street, and the aftermath of Sam’s roar, which set off a reverberation87 that has yet to stop, one leading like a narrow, overgrown track to a place beyond words. But Sam is saying yes.
